before the middle, ending the beginning

i don't get to sleep... i don't get to have the love...
restless world settles around me...
there isn't a resting for this heart...
always further than arms length...
there is always a restless breath...
even when its bathed in alcohol...
longer nights waiting for the break off...
some kind of silence trying to shake off...
everything that doesn't burn...

given

for every child that breaths fear...
my breath that lacks will hurt for the innocent...
everything is following dream...
no man could give more than the life given...